When things just happen

Have you ever imagined if some of your favourite stories came true? Or when you watched a movie and the same incident happens with you? All these fantasies are always what we wish for in our life – many a times they do happen as well, and when they do, it is different feeling. You are smiling, there are butterflies in your stomach, and the world just seems a better place – of course your heart makes your mind think – do miracles really happen?

I, of all people, and those who know me well, would acknowledge the fact about how big a fan of Bollywood I am. In fact, many people close to me also say that my life itself is a movie (ok, maybe that is just me quoting myself). Funny though that I experienced something that I have never had before.

In the age of quarantine, pandemic, work from home and isolation, it is very easy for your mind to go into overthinking mode or really drive you crazy. Interestingly, when I was in the zone of no hope, comes a notification on my phone – a friend of mine had replied to a story of mine. Oh trust me, in today’s world – that’s a bigger sign of happiness than getting a match on tinder. Anyhow, the conversation started from there – went on to some totally random topics – to daily exchanges to getting into each others’ phonebooks and then texting.

Both of us had the least of ideas about what was going on, but it was very clear that we were pulling each other out of our dark modes in these difficult times.

The first phone call happened to be a pretty long one – probably as long as an average flight time in our country (2 hours). There were things we did not know, and old incidents that we revisited from our past and places and people that we shared. Oh yes, that’s the detail I missed – we knew each other for long time but never really got to talking. Funny what a lockdown and staying at home for so long can do to you.

What was more shocking were the long list of similarities that came up – even when it comes to disliking people, food and behaviours. I guess that’s what all that was needed at that point – in both of our lives.

Little did we realise when the switch flicked and we just fell for each other. From making each other sleep at night, to making sure the other person is comfortable and has their space – I think there were lot of things that just clicked without putting effort. Long time back, a friend of mine told me – “Relationships are not about saying I love you, it is about understanding and making sure you make each other grow”.

I never understood how that would work – but today even with a distance of 2164 kms between us, we understand what is going through each other’s head, we know how to complete each other’s sentences and we know when to step back and respect each other’s space.

Till date, all of it feels like a dream, a dream that I will make sure never ends, a dream that I want to continue to live. There are only countable things in life that one can be grateful for – and I guess I have found mine and I plan to hold onto it forever.

Maybe this is what feels like to be in a movie, maybe this is what feels like when somethings just happen and you love it. I hope everyone has a story like mine as we try to find our happy place in this world.

Twists and Turns

Last few days have just been full of ups and downs.

Lets start with the most disappointing part- FC Midtjyland 2-1 Manchester United. A club that is 17 years old, younger than me, only won Danish Super League Title defeats us. I mean what have we come down to. Agreed, we have 12 players on the injury list and David De Gea was the latest one to be added just before the match, but  at least play like Manchester United. The defense line was as static as a snail and the attack was mediocre. The team could feel the absence of Wayne Rooney. I think I would happily support Rio Ferdinand’s tweet that enough time has been given to LVG. The position, points don’t matter, the team has forgotten how to play the United way. With a game against Arsenal coming up, I just pray at least DDG makes a return to the line up.

Let me now shift focus to my emotional life. It is in those cliche phase where you find out that the girl you liked is dating someone else, she has moved on faster than you or rather she doesn’t care about your existence anymore. You cry everyday night to sleep, try to cheer up by trying to hit things off with other prospects, but the only thought in your head is her and her smile. Her voice echoes everyday in your ear and you check your phone a;ways expecting something from her. You promise yourself that you won’t stalk her, you won’t like her pictures but every time you open instagram or ask.fm or snapchat, you automatically want her posts to be there, something about you, something that indicates that she misses you or thinks about you. All you get is, her smiling face or she posting pictures with some other guy. You tell yourself not to cry, not to feel hurt, the pain, but the tears are unstoppable as they come gushing down your cheek and then you just sink back in your pillow screaming which no one can hear. I believe I will be okay soon.

How about we look at the happier side of life? There is this amazing artist in my office, she is kind off cute but don’t get me wrong, she is madly in love with someone else so no chance. Anyways, so we decided how about we combine my sketches and her doodle and start and instagram page. The much needed distraction I needed and of course it felt good. You can check us out at @doodle77sketch. If you like our work, please follow and share.

FINALLY, I WATCHED DEADPOOL. Why did I right that in Caps, because it is FREAKINGAMAZING!!!! Easily one of the craziest marvel movies and Ryan you sure as hell made some chimi fuckin’ changa!. If you haven’t watched it, I advice kindly drop a leave notice in your office/school and go watch it at priority. Because this great ass, who is a bad ass can’t be missed.

Signing off! Big week coming up at work. Hopefully all goes good. 🙂

ADIOS!